Have you talked to a therapist yet? Maybe thought about it? Depending on your insurance, if you call the member services number on the back of your card you can ask the who is in network and email you a list of therapist who accept your insurance. You can also use this to find a psychiatrist. These are the docs that can help you with different meds you may need. Then there is something that is not Western medicine, which is Reiki, Sound baths, smudging etc. Find what works best for you and you respond the best to. Life is strange friend. Go find your joy!